Well between baby girl and going through some emotional lows, I’ve been writing day 10 for three days now. So I decided to just start fresh and I’ll get back to the previous post later.
I get extra thinky when I’m feeling low. And this time I’ve been extra thinky about space. No not the massive dark matter that holds our planets, but the space that we live in. The space that we call home. The space that holds our happenings day in and day out.
I’ve been thinking about it because space holds memories. (And I’ve now said “space” so many times it now looks and sounds like a really weird word.) And the space that we call home has an incredible amount of memories – good ones, sad ones, happy ones, hard ones. And because of these memories and subsequent associations, spaces can make us feel certain ways.
The question I’ve been asking myself is, “If the space that you’re in the most often brings negative memories and associations, is there something you can do about it and should you do something about it?
Should you rearrange and redecorate? Is that enough recreation of the space to alter the associated emotions? If not, should you move? Is this where so many people find relief in a “fresh start”?
I’ve been thinking about it because we’ve been in the same house since we got married five years ago. And we’ve had some ups, but we’ve had a lot of downs, too. And, sadly, sometimes our home reminds of those down times. Okay, a lot of times. And I hate to admit that because I love our house and the time we’ve had in it! But sometimes I do wonder.
In a lot of ways it just feels like we need a fresh start. And I don’t exactly know what that means or looks like. But I often think about moving. So those combined thoughts is what got me here now. I don’t know the answer to this yet, but I know I will continue thinking about it.
